nov 09, 25.
it's so hard to decide whether to keep your eyes to the ground or to the sky. You never know what you'll find either way, and both offer more to the imagination than to keep your eyes forward, that is to say, in the present (aware of your surroundings.) You've got to check on the heavens every once in a while, and you will never be dissapointed. the ground is where all the leftovers go.
oct 10, 25.
I find I usually enjoy myself more when I'm experiencing some level of physical discomfort. I like to wear itchy wool, too much or too little clothing for the weather, be hungry, etc, to increase my enjoyment of other things. If I am too comfortable I become numb to beauty.
oct 01, 25.
Things I can change: The words I say, the items I own, where I go, what I create
Things I can try to change: My thoughts, my behavior, my memories, what I see/hear
Things I can't change: Other people, security camera footage, internet archive, bureaucracy
sep. 25, 25.
I don't kill anything, as a rule. At least never on purpose. I'm not exactly repulsed by death, but I am repulsed by premature death. I don't eat meat for this reason, I don't believe anybody has the right to extingush another's life. It is just not my role in the world to kill. There are plenty of others that fill that role, with pleasure.
sep. 22, 25.
I always say, "sorry, nature", when I throw something away. I know it does no good. but maybe putting out an apology for my misgiving is more positive than unconciously doing it? It is a sin to throw away hair. The best haircut I ever got was my mother, out in the country, in the summer air. All of my hair landed in the dirt, and some was picked up by birds to make nests, and some eventually made it back into the earth. That's what I'd like all of our debris to do, re-enter the cycle. And it all will eventually, in time.